I knew this would happen.
I really knew, looking back from previous posts, I knew something was wrong in our relationship. We just didn't give up easily. But there was a missing piece. I knew it all along; I just brushed it off my mind. Because I needed him. He gave me happiness.
He explained to me what happened through chat. And what he said was right. It was written here. How he had doubts even before 2014. I wrote it down here--the sudden change of his behavior. The everyday calls turned to being occasional. The effort he gave me lessen as the days passed. I just chose to be blinded by love. I knew it all along, yet I didn't do anything. I didn't set him free.
Four years had passed, yet the doubts grew and grew until he didn't feel anything. He was no longer happy. He tried, but it didn't work. I loved him, and love shouldn't be like this right? And so, even though it was painful, even though I could still bear the hurt, even though I wanted him to stay with me... I chose to let him go. I wanted him to be free.
That's what love means right, putting other people's happiness over yours? But love, also, is sweet in the beginning, yet the infatuation will fade as time goes by and what matters will be the commitment and the bond you've shared. I hope he will understand it one day, that no matter how in love or how attractive someone is, it will eventually fade. And you just need to choose that person over and over again.
I was thankful, for what its worth, at least he tried. He stayed even though he knew he was unhappy. He tried to restore his feelings for me--but it made me sad also, for I was willing to give him everything, but that everything was not he needed. He needed happiness, and that happiness is not me.
Dear, you may now go, and if you didn't find your happiness, remember that I am just here waiting for you until I become ready to meet the one that fits for me. Until the love I have for you is gone. Until then, I probably will embrace you wholeheartedly.
I hope I could find someone who will love me. Hi future lover, I am just here with so much love and I am excited to give it to you. I am looking forward to meeting you soon.
♥ ☺ ♥ And that what life brings. ♥ ☺ ♥
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