Okay. This is it.

Okay. And this is the day. This is it. The most awaited day.

Bata pa lang ako, pinapantasya ko na ang araw na ito. Ang pagsapit ng araw na pinakakaasam (somewhat) ko. Pinagplanuhan ko na ito, simula pa noong bata, kung anong mangyayari sa araw na ito, kung anong magigng pakiramdam ko, lahat na.

Kaya naman, ngayon, nang dumating na ang araw na pinakahihintay ko, sari-saring emosyon ang sa aki' y nananahan. Hindi ko alam kung malungkot o masaya o natatakot ako. Ang tanging alam ko lang ay ang mabilis na pagtibok ng puso ko. Kabado ako. Oo, inaamin ko.

Kinakabahan ako. Gusto kong maging masaya ngayong araw na ito. Gusto kong mapuno ng pagmamahal ang espesyal na araw na ito. Pinangarap ko ito at inasam-asam. Hindi pwedeng mauwi lang ito sa pagsisi, lungkot at pighati.

Kailangan kong maging masaya. Gagawin ko ang lahat matupad lang iyon. Kasama na rin dyan ang pamemeke ng aura ko. Good vibes dapat. Throw away all the negative ions! Kung kailangan magpanggap at magfabricate ng data, feelings and emotion, gagawin ko iyon.

Frustrated ako. Oo, frustrated akong gawing espesyal ang araw na ito. Andami na ring naglalaro sa aking isipan na mga mangyayari mamaya. Peroooo, sa dinadami-dami ng mga naiisip at ineexpect ko, ang kinatatakot ko, baka ni isa sa mga iyon, ay walang matupad.

I am expecting something to happen. And yes, that's depressing. Expecting something means risking your emotional stability and one might get hurt while engaging on this. Masasaktan lang ako kung mag-expect ako ng sobra. Peroooooo, ano bang magagawa ko, pilitin ko mang pigilan ang paglalaro ng isip ko, patuloy pa rin silang umaandar.

Okay. Takot ako, inaamin ko. Takot akong maging malungkot lalung-lalo na sa araw na ito. Takot akong maging mag-isa. Takot akong masira ang araw na pinakahihintay kong dumating sa buhay ko. Natatakot ako na baka huling araw na ito; baka walang makaalala; baka wala silang pakialam. Natatakot ako kasi ganito ako.

O kay bilis! Kay bilis naman ng araw. Kahapon, gusto ko nang pahintuin ang oras o dili nama'y pabilisin at laktawan ang araw kong pinakahihintay. Sa bilis kasi ng panahon, naiwan akong nakatingala, nagpaplano at nagpapantasya imbis na kumilos at gawing katotohanan ang mga isinisiksik ko sa isip. Kay bilis, hindi dahil sa mabagal akong umagkos ngunit dahil hindi ako sumasabay. Sino ba naman ako para hintuan ng oras. Sino ba ako para kanyang hintayin. VIP?

Okay. And this is the day. This is it. The most awaited day. Kaya naman, masyado nang occupied ang aking isipan. Natatakot, kinakabahan, frustrated, naiiyak--lahat na. Nag-e-expect ng something na masaya. Sana pala hindi ko na hinintay ito. Iyon bang dapat, pinabayaan ko na lang siyang dumating. Atat kasi ako eh. Iyan tuloy, hindi pa ako hinog kaya't maasim pa sa panlasa ng mga tao.

Okay. This is the day. And this is it. Wala nang atrasan pa. Ano pa bang mamagawa ko kundi tanggaping tumatanda na pala ako. Sino ba naman ako para balikan niya, di'ba. Kaya, sa ayaw at sa gusto ko, ikaw, oo, taong may kagagawan ng kadramahang ito, ay kailangang makuntento ka. Matuto ka na. Masayahin ka di'ba?

♥ ☺ ♥ And that what life brings. ♥ ☺ ♥

Anime Challenge

Pick 5 anime you like without reading the questions.

1. Gakuen Alice

2. Detective Conan

3. Kimi ni Todoke

4. Vampire Knight

5. Clannad/ After Story

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1. Who is your favorite character in 2? 

 Shinichi Kudou 

 2. Who is your least favorite character in 1? 

 Elementary School Principal.

He is sooooo bad.

 3. What's your favorite episode of 4? 

 I forgot the episode but i think my favorite part is when Yuki became vampire. 

 But, with the help of some site, i figured out the episode I am talking about. It is episode 9 of Vampire Knight Guilty (Season 2)

4. What’s your favorite season of 5?

 Season 2!

Clannad After Story. 

Tear jerkerrrrr eveeeeer

5. What’s your favorite relationship on 3? 

 Shouta Kazehaya ♥ Sawako Kuronuma

*le live action*

Honorable Mentions:

Ryu Sanada  ♥  Chizuru Yoshida

*le live action*

Ayane Yano ♥ Kazuichi “Pin” Arai

Ayane Yano ♥ Kento Miura

*le chapter 70 of Kimi ni Todoke*

6. Who is your least favorite relationship in 2? 

 Gin and Vermouth 

 Sherry (Shiho Miyano/Ai Haibara) and Gin 

 I want Shiho to be with Shinichi if they will not go back to their original self. Shiho is so cuteeee that’s why they (shinichi and her) look good together. I don’t want her to be with Gin (nor the fact that they have a sexual relationship in the past *accoording to some fan*). I hate Gin, he’s so evil. Grrrr.

Ai Haibara (Shiho) and Conan Edogawa (Shinichi Kudo)

7. How long have you watched 1? 

Everyday 

(April 20-ish to May 16, 2007)

 until the end. 

 and I have been reading the latest chapters of the manga. ^^

 *why is that there’s no number 8?* 

 9. Who is your favorite voice actor in 4?

 I don’t know. I think I don't have one.

But I like the one who sang it’s first ending song. 

I don't know if he/she is seeyuu in one of the characters.

10. Which do you prefer? 1, 2, or 5? 

#1 - Gakuen Alice

 Butttt i like themmmmm alllll

It is just that I can't resist Natsume's unique aura especially when teasing Mikan.

11. Have you seen more episodes of 1 or 3? 

 Kimi ni Todoke 

because it has season 2 :))

12. If you could be anyone from 4?

 Who would it be? 

 Yuki Cross/Kuran ^^

13. How would you kill off your favorite character in 5? 

 I DONT WANT THEM TO DIE. I WILL KILL MYSELF INSTEAD  (JUST FOR THEM TO BECOME HAPPY). 

*okay. I’m over reacting :| :DDD*

*le best description of HAPPPPPY FAMILLLLLY*

*le peaking Ushio*

14. Give a random quote from 4.

“That’s why for you, you have the right to be cruel to me. No matter how much you make me worry or how much danger you put me in, just as much as you like. But these are not enough ‘compensation.’ Even if I have to sacrifice my left over life for you, I would not utter a word of complaint.”

-- Zero Kiryuu

15. Would 3/4 crossover work? 

 No. I think. 

Because of genre and settings.

 16. Pair two characters in 1 that would make an unlikely but strangely good couple. 

 Mikan Sakura and Tsubasa Ando

 Yuka Yukihira and Narumi L. Anju 

 *Young Yuka and Narumi*

17. Overall, which show has the best cast, 3 or 5? 

 #5 - Clannad/After Story

18. Which has the best theme music? 

Song: Kanon Wakeshima - Still Doll 

I really like the ending song of Vampire Knight.
 It is kind of creepy but cooool!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7NFWTWQQ40o

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 Yey! I'm dooooone! 

Imma sleep sleeep sleeeeeep na. 

:DDD

Secret Garden Hangover Quotes

“It’s not because I love you, but because I only love you. If I don’t have you, then I won’t have any other choices.” – Joo Won

“Being unable to eat and sleep is the basic thing. Waking up in the middle of the night will become a daily routine. Because the one you love has turned into someone else, you also can’t whine to each other for the fear of being scolded by that person. So, you cry by yourself. But what hurts the most is that person doesn’t actually miss me like the way I do. It’s like that person has forgotten about me and is simply being happy alone. All you want to do is die, but you can’t die either… because you’re scared that you won’t see that person again.” – Seul

“She drives like a car racer. If she witnesses someone’s purse being snatched, someone she’s never met in her life, she’ll throw fists. She has no money and her body is covered in scars, but she doesn’t want to spend even one second of one minute with people like us. She’s that kind of woman. I’ve never seen a woman as cool as her. That… is my answer.” – Joo Won

“There are things that are thought of as fantasies merely because they’re far away. Starry bodies are like that. Just as it is with people who are too beautiful, they readily disappear – In the books that I’d read to find out what he’s really like, this was a passage that had long settled in my heart. It’s now that I realize it, how beautiful a person he is. And therefore, how far away he is from me. He’ll disappear someday, too, like people do when they’re too beautiful.” – Ra-Im

“Where on earth is a woman who’ll jump at the chance to happily and beautifully cultivate a love that’ll just turn to bubbles? Nowhere in the world is there a woman who will start a love, giving up the ending. That’s why we’ll never work. We have no answer.” – Ra-Im

“The thing about women is, the most common of women can become a queen, and the most rarefied woman can become a maid – according to how she is treated by the person she loves.” – Seul

“Do you like decorating trees? I hate it – I hate making a ruckus on anyone’s birthday but my own. But… I thought that you would like it. You only like things that I hate.” – Joo Won

“Since what age did you become so pretty?” – Joo Won

“I’m thinking of doing everything now, including this stupid act of waiting for someone in front of their house so you should do the same. You have no thoughts of becoming the little mermaid, so that’s why I’ll be come the little mermaid instead. I’ll be right next to you as if I am not there and disappear like foam. So right now, I am the one shamelessly hanging on to you.” – Joo Won

“Are you that weak? Even if the distance seems far, run after him. Even if it feels like he isn’t next to you, grab on to him.” – Seul

“All around the world there are 230 countries, and among those people I can speak 5 languages. Nevertheless, I can’t find the exact word to define our relationship.” – Joo Won

“Open your eyes. You did something strange and stole my heart, you made me drink something strange and stole my body, showed up at someone else’s party and stole even my lips. If it wasn’t for that, there is no reason for you to look so pretty in my eyes.” – Joo Won

“From now on, no matter what you do I’ll still like it, no matter what you do I’ll still forgive you, for the sole reason that you’re alive.” – Ra Im

“There are only two types of girls: the type that you marry and the type that you play around with and then break up with. But you’re somewhere in between.” – Joo Won

“Alice in Wonderland Syndrome. This is a mental illness. It is like looking through the wrong end of a pair of binoculars. It is as if you are living in a fantasy world of a fable. This is an interesting and sad syndrome. I’m sure that I have that syndrome. If it’s not it, then why the heck does my every moment with the ordinary girl feel like a fable?” – Joo Won

”If some man tells you that he’s fallen in love with you at first sight, just punch him. It’s just another way of saying that he wants to go to bed with you.” – Joo Won

“Don’t fall in love with another guy. For the rest of your life, live alone and think of me. This is perhaps the most selfish decision I’ve made in my life.” – Joo Won

“You just hang up the phone whenever you feel like it. When I come to find you, you get angry. When I try to buy you food, you get even angrier. Even worse than that, you hit me. You’re a completely strange woman… but that’s exactly the problem. You’re so strange that I find you, puzzling and amazing.” – Joo Won

“You’re really pretty when you’re mad.” – Joo Won

“Do you need more miracles? There was already a miracle. A woman with no decent family background, no money, no good looks, is someone very special to someone who has everything. Isn’t that a miracle? Be honest. When I was clinging on to you, I know you said “go away, disappear”, but inside you were going KYA!!! Right?” – Joo Won

“We still don’t have a single wedding photo. But we live every day, loving and being loved, living a magical life. Maybe being in love is a lot like swapping souls. May your soul have flowers that bloom, a cool breeze, a shining sun, and… once in a while, a magical rain that falls.” – Ra Im

“I hope you’ll see the things I see. You’ll stand at the window where I stand, and lie down in the bed where I lie down, and read the books I read. If we could be together, even in that way… then that’s enough. Let’s think of it as being together. That’s enough for us to consider ourselves as happy as other lovers.” – Joo Won

“Gil Ra Im will always be stuck between two different worlds, when I’m done with you, you’ll disappear like foam on the sea.” – Joo Won

“Among the four seasons, I like winter the best. The face is cold and the body is hot. Even though you’re tired, you freeze when you stop walking. I like it when I have to walk and walk until my heart bursts. Because if you continue to walk, eventually you get on the top of the mountain.” – Ra Im

“My marriage is a complicated business with many stakeholders. In the end, I’ll have to make a decision. Will I disappoint all those people and get you, or will I lose you and get a girl who will be an advantage for me in business? Is the first option what you want? Fine! Let’s say that I throw everything away and choose you. Get a house to live in and a bed. We’ll just sleep together and then wake up. But… how long do you think the happiness would last? I lose everything and the two lived happily ever after? Can you say that? I don’t have the confidence to not blame you and hate you for it. Do you?” – Joo Won

“The things you say are true. It’s all true. But, you fool, where in the world is there a woman who would foster a tender, happy love only to disappear like sea foam? No woman starts a love with a designated end.” – Ra Im♥ ☺ ♥ And that what life brings.

We’re over. We’re finished. But only memories of good times and love pop up. The more and more you try to erase them, the longer the days get. So it’s like you are breaking up with them for 365 days. But the think that hurt most is that I don’t think they’re even thinking about me.

♥ ☺ ♥