"In the sweetness of friendship let there be laughter, and sharing of pleasures." Enjoy your cravings :)

Thursday, March 31, 2011

Corruption Starts Here.

Imaginine mo ang isang bulok na kamatis sa isang timba, kasama ang mga malilinis at walang depektong kauri niya. O kaya naman isang bulok na ngipin na hindi binunot noon pa, ngayo'y hinawaan na rin pati ang katabi niyang inosente't malinis pa. Iyan, iyan ang buhay ko ngayon, ang buhay namin.

Bakit nga ba ako tumakbo, sinong humahabol? Wala naman. Tanging konsensya at walang malay na isip ko lang ang tumutulak sa akin papalayo, papabalik at papatalikod kung saan alam kong mali ang hindi tama at hindi tama ang nangyayari ngayon.

Nasa politika ako ngayon, hawak-hawak ang kapangyarihan hindi pa gaanong masilab at namumukadkad. Ito'y kulay asul pa lamang na nagbibigay ng tunay na init at sindi sa pagliyab. Wala pang kahel o pula, na tila nagdidiktang papalakas na ang sakuna, at ito'y umiinit na.

Ang kapangyarihan ko'y mainit pa, dahil ako'y bata pa at kumapara sa kanila, na betererano sa mga bagay na ito at nakaugawian ng magpaikot ng tao. Hindi lamang opinyon, estado at buhay ng tao, maging ang sitwasyon, hawak nila at mahirap nang mabago. Iipitin ka ng pinong-pino hanggang sa hindi ka makahinga, hanggang sa matali ka na at maging tauhan nila. Ang masaklap pa ay maging katulad ka nila.

SK Kagawad ako at parang pinagsisihan ko na ito. Bakit ako tumakbo, simple lang, hindi dahil sa pera, hindi dahil sa tibok ng damdamin, kung hindi dahil sa karanasan. Iyan lang naman talaga ang habol ko, ang maranasan ang mga bagay na hindi ko pamilyar. Kasama na riyan ang pagpunta sa iba't ibang lugar na talaga namang gustong gusto ko. Libre na, gumala pa.

Ngunit, sa pagpasok ko rito, nakita ko ang mga hindi dapat makita, ang mga baluktok na itinutuwid kunwari nila Nalaman ko kung paano maglaro ng apoy ang mga nasa karnabal. Nasaksihan ko, ng mismong mga mata, kung paanong ang maruming salumpuwit ay inuupuan nila.

Malinis ka man, mababahiran ka pa rin ng putik gaano ka man tumanggi. Ang masaklap pa, wala kang magawa, wala dahil ang apoy mo'y maliit pa lamang na walang palag sa kanilang apoy na naglilyab, nagliliyab sa kapalaluan at kabaluktutan.

Ngayon, isa na akong kamatis na nakahalo sa bulok, gaano man ako kasariwa, mahahawa at mahahahwa pa rin ako sa kanila. Ayoko man, hindi ko man ginusto. Huwag naman sana akong maging katulad nila balang araw, mabubulok at unit-unting hahawaan ang iba.

♥ ☺ ♥ And that what life brings. ♥ ☺ ♥

Friday, March 18, 2011

Salapi

Ok. At dahil puro kapitalismo ang paksa ng aralin namin sa panpil17, itong sa'yo!


Salapi


Matagal nang

Tinutukan ng mga mata’ng

mga gawain mo:

kontrolado mo ang buong globo

gayung kay saglit

mo lang na mapunit?


Bakit

Kay lakas ng kapit

sa mga nagigipit?

masama, bumabait,

pagkat ikaw ang nais;

mabuti, nagiging ganid,

pagkat sa iyo naiinggit;

puri ng birhen nasusungkit,

kung ikaw ang kapalit;

nagkakahitsura ang mga pangit,

dahil ikaw ang gamit;

grabe! Ang lupit

at ang bagsik

humahagupit!


Mga utak, iyong ginulo;

mga puso, iyong pinahinto;

ang may nalalamon

nilugmok sa gutom!

Ang salitang pag-ibig

inalis sa bibig

di pa nakuntento

inalis sa diksyunaryo!

Ito ba ang nais matamo

sa paghawak mo sa mundo?


Ang pobre, imbis magtrabaho

namerwisyo

Ministro, pangulo, kahit sino

basta’t nasa gobyerno

nanggogoyo, nanloloko

nakisawsaw pa

mga pari’t obispo

dahil ba sa makamundo

at maka-“langit” na prinsipyo?

Sadya nga bang ito

Ang buo mong plano?


Napailing na lang ako

Nasayang ang boses ni Bonifacio

at nabalewala si Rizal at ang tatlong ulo

Naawa rin ako kay Ninoy,

kay Lim, Escoda at Santos

Mabini at Aguinaldo

kasama sina Quezon, Osmeña’t Roxas

‘pagkat nakaladkad

ang iningatang pangalan

sa kahihiyan

ganito ka ba gumalang

sa kanilang kabayanihan?

O baka nama’y ‘di mo talaga ginalang

dahil wala naman kabayanihan.


Ano nga ba ang mayroon

sa tulad mong

kasya sa bulsa ng pantalon

at ang mundo’y

naghahangad sa’yo

nang todo-todo?

Di alintana

ang magpatayan

maski kadugo o kahit katoto!


Tao! Kailan ka babangon

sa bangungot na ito?

Hindi iyan

ang diyos mo.

♥ ☺ ♥ And that what life brings. ♥ ☺ ♥

Personality Test

This report compares banunay from the country Philippines to other females less than 21 years of age. (The name used in this report is either a nickname chosen by the person taking the test, or, if a valid nickname was not chosen, a random nickname generated by the program.)

This report estimates the individual's level on each of the five broad personality domains of the Five-Factor Model. The description of each one of the five broad domains is followed by a more detailed description of personality according to the six subdomains that comprise each domain.

A note on terminology. Personality traits describe, relative to other people, the frequency or intensity of a person's feelings, thoughts, or behaviors. Possession of a trait is therefore a matter of degree. We might describe two individuals as extraverts, but still see one as more extraverted than the other. This report uses expressions such as "extravert" or "high in extraversion" to describe someone who is likely to be seen by others as relatively extraverted. The computer program that generates this report classifies you as low, average, or high in a trait according to whether your score is approximately in the lowest 30%, middle 40%, or highest 30% of scores obtained by people of your sex and roughly your age. Your numerical scores are reported and graphed as percentile estimates. For example, a score of "60" means that your level on that trait is estimated to be higher than 60% of persons of your sex and age.

Please keep in mind that "low," "average," and "high" scores on a personality test are neither absolutely good nor bad. A particular level on any trait will probably be neutral or irrelevant for a great many activites, be helpful for accomplishing some things, and detrimental for accomplishing other things. As with any personality inventory, scores and descriptions can only approximate an individual's actual personality. High and low score descriptions are usually accurate, but average scores close to the low or high boundaries might misclassify you as only average. On each set of six subdomain scales it is somewhat uncommon but certainly possible to score high in some of the subdomains and low in the others. In such cases more attention should be paid to the subdomain scores than to the broad domain score. Questions about the accuracy of your results are best resolved by showing your report to people who know you well.

John A. Johnson wrote descriptions of the five domains and thirty subdomains. These descriptions are based on an extensive reading of the scientific literature on personality measurement.

Extraversion

Extraversion is marked by pronounced engagement with the external world. Extraverts enjoy being with people, are full of energy, and often experience positive emotions. They tend to be enthusiastic, action-oriented, individuals who are likely to say "Yes!" or "Let's go!" to opportunities for excitement. In groups they like to talk, assert themselves, and draw attention to themselves.

Introverts lack the exuberance, energy, and activity levels of extraverts. They tend to be quiet, low-key, deliberate, and disengaged from the social world. Their lack of social involvement should not be interpreted as shyness or depression; the introvert simply needs less stimulation than an extravert and prefers to be alone. The independence and reserve of the introvert is sometimes mistaken as unfriendliness or arrogance. In reality, an introvert who scores high on the agreeableness dimension will not seek others out but will be quite pleasant when approached.

Domain/Facet............ Score

Extraversion...............80

Friendliness.............64

Gregariousness...........65

Assertiveness............68

Activity Level...........42

Excitement-Seeking.......94

Cheerfulness.............84

Your score on Extraversion is high, indicating you are sociable, outgoing, energetic, and lively. You prefer to be around people much of the time.

Extraversion Facets

  • Friendliness. Friendly people genuinely like other people and openly demonstrate positive feelings toward others. They make friends quickly and it is easy for them to form close, intimate relationships. Low scorers on Friendliness are not necessarily cold and hostile, but they do not reach out to others and are perceived as distant and reserved. Your level of friendliness is average.
  • Gregariousness. Gregarious people find the company of others pleasantly stimulating and rewarding. They enjoy the excitement of crowds. Low scorers tend to feel overwhelmed by, and therefore actively avoid, large crowds. They do not necessarily dislike being with people sometimes, but their need for privacy and time to themselves is much greater than for individuals who score high on this scale. Your level of gregariousness is average.
  • Assertiveness. High scorers Assertiveness like to speak out, take charge, and direct the activities of others. They tend to be leaders in groups. Low scorers tend not to talk much and let others control the activities of groups. Your level of assertiveness is high.
  • Activity Level. Active individuals lead fast-paced, busy lives. They move about quickly, energetically, and vigorously, and they are involved in many activities. People who score low on this scale follow a slower and more leisurely, relaxed pace. Your activity level is average.
  • Excitement-Seeking. High scorers on this scale are easily bored without high levels of stimulation. They love bright lights and hustle and bustle. They are likely to take risks and seek thrills. Low scorers are overwhelmed by noise and commotion and are adverse to thrill-seeking. Your level of excitement-seeking is high.
  • Cheerfulness. This scale measures positive mood and feelings, not negative emotions (which are a part of the Neuroticism domain). Persons who score high on this scale typically experience a range of positive feelings, including happiness, enthusiasm, optimism, and joy. Low scorers are not as prone to such energetic, high spirits. Your level of positive emotions is high.

Agreeableness

Agreeableness reflects individual differences in concern with cooperation and social harmony. Agreeable individuals value getting along with others. They are therefore considerate, friendly, generous, helpful, and willing to compromise their interests with others'. Agreeable people also have an optimistic view of human nature. They believe people are basically honest, decent, and trustworthy.

Disagreeable individuals place self-interest above getting along with others. They are generally unconcerned with others' well-being, and therefore are unlikely to extend themselves for other people. Sometimes their skepticism about others' motives causes them to be suspicious, unfriendly, and uncooperative.

Agreeableness is obviously advantageous for attaining and maintaining popularity. Agreeable people are better liked than disagreeable people. On the other hand, agreeableness is not useful in situations that require tough or absolute objective decisions. Disagreeable people can make excellent scientists, critics, or soldiers.

Domain/Facet............ Score

Agreeableness..............19

Trust....................73

Morality.................0

Altruism.................54

Cooperation..............19

Modesty..................3

Sympathy.................66

Your score on Agreeableness is low, indicating less concern with others' needs Than with your own. People see you as tough, critical, and uncompromising.

Agreeableness Facets

  • Trust. A person with high trust assumes that most people are fair, honest, and have good intentions. Persons low in trust see others as selfish, devious, and potentially dangerous. Your level of trust is high.
  • Morality. High scorers on this scale see no need for pretense or manipulation when dealing with others and are therefore candid, frank, and sincere. Low scorers believe that a certain amount of deception in social relationships is necessary. People find it relatively easy to relate to the straightforward high-scorers on this scale. They generally find it more difficult to relate to the unstraightforward low-scorers on this scale. It should be made clear that low scorers are not unprincipled or immoral; they are simply more guarded and less willing to openly reveal the whole truth. Your level of morality is low.
  • Altruism. Altruistic people find helping other people genuinely rewarding. Consequently, they are generally willing to assist those who are in need. Altruistic people find that doing things for others is a form of self-fulfillment rather than self-sacrifice. Low scorers on this scale do not particularly like helping those in need. Requests for help feel like an imposition rather than an opportunity for self-fulfillment. Your level of altruism is average.
  • Cooperation. Individuals who score high on this scale dislike confrontations. They are perfectly willing to compromise or to deny their own needs in order to get along with others. Those who score low on this scale are more likely to intimidate others to get their way. Your level of compliance is low.
  • Modesty. High scorers on this scale do not like to claim that they are better than other people. In some cases this attitude may derive from low self-confidence or self-esteem. Nonetheless, some people with high self-esteem find immodesty unseemly. Those who are willing to describe themselves as superior tend to be seen as disagreeably arrogant by other people. Your level of modesty is low.
  • Sympathy. People who score high on this scale are tenderhearted and compassionate. They feel the pain of others vicariously and are easily moved to pity. Low scorers are not affected strongly by human suffering. They pride themselves on making objective judgments based on reason. They are more concerned with truth and impartial justice than with mercy. Your level of tender-mindedness is average.

Conscientiousness

Conscientiousness concerns the way in which we control, regulate, and direct our impulses. Impulses are not inherently bad; occasionally time constraints require a snap decision, and acting on our first impulse can be an effective response. Also, in times of play rather than work, acting spontaneously and impulsively can be fun. Impulsive individuals can be seen by others as colorful, fun-to-be-with, and zany.

Nonetheless, acting on impulse can lead to trouble in a number of ways. Some impulses are antisocial. Uncontrolled antisocial acts not only harm other members of society, but also can result in retribution toward the perpetrator of such impulsive acts. Another problem with impulsive acts is that they often produce immediate rewards but undesirable, long-term consequences. Examples include excessive socializing that leads to being fired from one's job, hurling an insult that causes the breakup of an important relationship, or using pleasure-inducing drugs that eventually destroy one's health.

Impulsive behavior, even when not seriously destructive, diminishes a person's effectiveness in significant ways. Acting impulsively disallows contemplating alternative courses of action, some of which would have been wiser than the impulsive choice. Impulsivity also sidetracks people during projects that require organized sequences of steps or stages. Accomplishments of an impulsive person are therefore small, scattered, and inconsistent.

A hallmark of intelligence, what potentially separates human beings from earlier life forms, is the ability to think about future consequences before acting on an impulse. Intelligent activity involves contemplation of long-range goals, organizing and planning routes to these goals, and persisting toward one's goals in the face of short-lived impulses to the contrary. The idea that intelligence involves impulse control is nicely captured by the term prudence, an alternative label for the Conscientiousness domain. Prudent means both wise and cautious. Persons who score high on the Conscientiousness scale are, in fact, perceived by others as intelligent.

The benefits of high conscientiousness are obvious. Conscientious individuals avoid trouble and achieve high levels of success through purposeful planning and persistence. They are also positively regarded by others as intelligent and reliable. On the negative side, they can be compulsive perfectionists and workaholics. Furthermore, extremely conscientious individuals might be regarded as stuffy and boring. Unconscientious people may be criticized for their unreliability, lack of ambition, and failure to stay within the lines, but they will experience many short-lived pleasures and they will never be called stuffy.

Domain/Facet............ Score

Conscientiousness..........6

Self-Efficacy............0

Orderliness..............32

Dutifulness..............29

Achievement-Striving.....22

Self-Discipline..........12

Cautiousness.............6

Your score on Conscientiousness is low, indicating you like to live for the moment and do what feels good now. Your work tends to be careless and disorganized.

Conscientiousness Facets

  • Self-Efficacy. Self-Efficacy describes confidence in one's ability to accomplish things. High scorers believe they have the intelligence (common sense), drive, and self-control necessary for achieving success. Low scorers do not feel effective, and may have a sense that they are not in control of their lives. Your level of self-efficacy is low.
  • Orderliness. Persons with high scores on orderliness are well-organized. They like to live according to routines and schedules. They keep lists and make plans. Low scorers tend to be disorganized and scattered. Your level of orderliness is low.
  • Dutifulness. This scale reflects the strength of a person's sense of duty and obligation. Those who score high on this scale have a strong sense of moral obligation. Low scorers find contracts, rules, and regulations overly confining. They are likely to be seen as unreliable or even irresponsible. Your level of dutifulness is low.
  • Achievement-Striving. Individuals who score high on this scale strive hard to achieve excellence. Their drive to be recognized as successful keeps them on track toward their lofty goals. They often have a strong sense of direction in life, but extremely high scores may be too single-minded and obsessed with their work. Low scorers are content to get by with a minimal amount of work, and might be seen by others as lazy. Your level of achievement striving is low.
  • Self-Discipline. Self-discipline-what many people call will-power-refers to the ability to persist at difficult or unpleasant tasks until they are completed. People who possess high self-discipline are able to overcome reluctance to begin tasks and stay on track despite distractions. Those with low self-discipline procrastinate and show poor follow-through, often failing to complete tasks-even tasks they want very much to complete. Your level of self-discipline is low.
  • Cautiousness. Cautiousness describes the disposition to think through possibilities before acting. High scorers on the Cautiousness scale take their time when making decisions. Low scorers often say or do first thing that comes to mind without deliberating alternatives and the probable consequences of those alternatives. Your level of cautiousness is low.

Neuroticism

Freud originally used the term neurosis to describe a condition marked by mental distress, emotional suffering, and an inability to cope effectively with the normal demands of life. He suggested that everyone shows some signs of neurosis, but that we differ in our degree of suffering and our specific symptoms of distress. Today neuroticism refers to the tendency to experience negative feelings. Those who score high on Neuroticism may experience primarily one specific negative feeling such as anxiety, anger, or depression, but are likely to experience several of these emotions. People high in neuroticism are emotionally reactive. They respond emotionally to events that would not affect most people, and their reactions tend to be more intense than normal. They are more likely to interpret ordinary situations as threatening, and minor frustrations as hopelessly difficult. Their negative emotional reactions tend to persist for unusually long periods of time, which means they are often in a bad mood. These problems in emotional regulation can diminish a neurotic's ability to think clearly, make decisions, and cope effectively with stress.

At the other end of the scale, individuals who score low in neuroticism are less easily upset and are less emotionally reactive. They tend to be calm, emotionally stable, and free from persistent negative feelings. Freedom from negative feelings does not mean that low scorers experience a lot of positive feelings; frequency of positive emotions is a component of the Extraversion domain.

Domain/Facet............ Score

Neuroticism................58

Anxiety..................66

Anger....................81

Depression...............58

Self-Consciousness.......58

Immoderation.............8

Vulnerability............57

Your score on Neuroticism is average, indicating that your level of emotional reactivity is typical of the general population. Stressful and frustrating situations are somewhat upsetting to you, but you are generally able to get over these feelings and cope with these situations.

Neuroticism Facets

  • Anxiety. The "fight-or-flight" system of the brain of anxious individuals is too easily and too often engaged. Therefore, people who are high in anxiety often feel like something dangerous is about to happen. They may be afraid of specific situations or be just generally fearful. They feel tense, jittery, and nervous. Persons low in Anxiety are generally calm and fearless. Your level of anxiety is average.
  • Anger. Persons who score high in Anger feel enraged when things do not go their way. They are sensitive about being treated fairly and feel resentful and bitter when they feel they are being cheated. This scale measures the tendency to feelangry; whether or not the person expresses annoyance and hostility depends on the individual's level on Agreeableness. Low scorers do not get angry often or easily. Your level of anger is high.
  • Depression. This scale measures the tendency to feel sad, dejected, and discouraged. High scorers lack energy and have difficult initiating activities. Low scorers tend to be free from these depressive feelings. Your level of depression is average.
  • Self-Consciousness. Self-conscious individuals are sensitive about what others think of them. Their concern about rejection and ridicule cause them to feel shy and uncomfortable abound others. They are easily embarrassed and often feel ashamed. Their fears that others will criticize or make fun of them are exaggerated and unrealistic, but their awkwardness and discomfort may make these fears a self-fulfilling prophecy. Low scorers, in contrast, do not suffer from the mistaken impression that everyone is watching and judging them. They do not feel nervous in social situations. Your level or self-consciousness is average.
  • Immoderation. Immoderate individuals feel strong cravings and urges that they have difficulty resisting. They tend to be oriented toward short-term pleasures and rewards rather than long- term consequences. Low scorers do not experience strong, irresistible cravings and consequently do not find themselves tempted to overindulge. Your level of immoderation is low.
  • Vulnerability. High scorers on Vulnerability experience panic, confusion, and helplessness when under pressure or stress. Low scorers feel more poised, confident, and clear-thinking when stressed. Your level of vulnerability is average.

Openness to Experience

Openness to Experience describes a dimension of cognitive style that distinguishes imaginative, creative people from down-to-earth, conventional people. Open people are intellectually curious, appreciative of art, and sensitive to beauty. They tend to be, compared to closed people, more aware of their feelings. They tend to think and act in individualistic and nonconforming ways. Intellectuals typically score high on Openness to Experience; consequently, this factor has also been called Culture or Intellect. Nonetheless, Intellect is probably best regarded as one aspect of openness to experience. Scores on Openness to Experience are only modestly related to years of education and scores on standard intelligent tests.

Another characteristic of the open cognitive style is a facility for thinking in symbols and abstractions far removed from concrete experience. Depending on the individual's specific intellectual abilities, this symbolic cognition may take the form of mathematical, logical, or geometric thinking, artistic and metaphorical use of language, music composition or performance, or one of the many visual or performing arts. People with low scores on openness to experience tend to have narrow, common interests. They prefer the plain, straightforward, and obvious over the complex, ambiguous, and subtle. They may regard the arts and sciences with suspicion, regarding these endeavors as abstruse or of no practical use. Closed people prefer familiarity over novelty; they are conservative and resistant to change.

Openness is often presented as healthier or more mature by psychologists, who are often themselves open to experience. However, open and closed styles of thinking are useful in different environments. The intellectual style of the open person may serve a professor well, but research has shown that closed thinking is related to superior job performance in police work, sales, and a number of service occupations.

Domain/Facet............ Score

Openess to experience.....40

Imagination..............75

Artistic Interests.......79

Emotionality.............37

Adventurousness..........19

Intellect................20

Liberalism...............36

Your score on Openness to Experience is average, indicating you enjoy tradition but are willing to try new things. Your thinking is neither simple nor complex. To others you appear to be a well-educated person but not an intellectual.

Openess Facets

  • Imagination. To imaginative individuals, the real world is often too plain and ordinary. High scorers on this scale use fantasy as a way of creating a richer, more interesting world. Low scorers are on this scale are more oriented to facts than fantasy. Your level of imagination is high.
  • Artistic Interests. High scorers on this scale love beauty, both in art and in nature. They become easily involved and absorbed in artistic and natural events. They are not necessarily artistically trained nor talented, although many will be. The defining features of this scale are interest in, andappreciation of natural and artificial beauty. Low scorers lack aesthetic sensitivity and interest in the arts. Your level of artistic interests is high.
  • Emotionality. Persons high on Emotionality have good access to and awareness of their own feelings. Low scorers are less aware of their feelings and tend not to express their emotions openly. Your level of emotionality is average.
  • Adventurousness. High scorers on adventurousness are eager to try new activities, travel to foreign lands, and experience different things. They find familiarity and routine boring, and will take a new route home just because it is different. Low scorers tend to feel uncomfortable with change and prefer familiar routines. Your level of adventurousness is low.
  • Intellect. Intellect and artistic interests are the two most important, central aspects of openness to experience. High scorers on Intellect love to play with ideas. They are open-minded to new and unusual ideas, and like to debate intellectual issues. They enjoy riddles, puzzles, and brain teasers. Low scorers on Intellect prefer dealing with either people or things rather than ideas. They regard intellectual exercises as a waste of time. Intellect should not be equated with intelligence. Intellect is an intellectual style, not an intellectual ability, although high scorers on Intellect scoreslightly higher than low-Intellect individuals on standardized intelligence tests. Your level of intellect is low.
  • Liberalism. Psychological liberalism refers to a readiness to challenge authority, convention, and traditional values. In its most extreme form, psychological liberalism can even represent outright hostility toward rules, sympathy for law-breakers, and love of ambiguity, chaos, and disorder. Psychological conservatives prefer the security and stability brought by conformity to tradition. Psychological liberalism and conservatism are not identical to political affiliation, but certainly incline individuals toward certain political parties. Your level of liberalism is average.

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♥ ☺ ♥ And that what life brings. ♥ ☺ ♥

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Pinoy Panitikan

Dahil matatapos na ang Marso kasabay ng pagtatapos ng klase, tamak-tambak na naman ang mga dapat gawin. Patung-patong, hindi lang iisa, 'di rin dalawa, bagkus ay marami pang talaga. Maraming naghihirap. Maraming nagpupuyat. Hindi ako pwedeng umangal at hindi maaaring tumigil. Hindi lang naman ako ang nag-iisa. Marami pa sila, marami pa kami.

Puro mga papers na kailangang tapusin ang problema ko ngayon. Okay lang naman sana iyon ngunit kung dadagdagan mo ng tambak-tambak na exams/finals eh ibang usapan na iyon. Magpupursigi ka at magpupuyat ngunitsa bandang huli, sa singko ka rin babagsak. Iyon ang talagang masaklap.

Dahil sa aktibistang propesor ko sa asignaturang nagngangalang Panitikang Pililipino 17, kailagan na naman naming kaibiganin ang salita at pagdugtong-dugtungin ito kasama ang pagsasaalang-alang sa mga balarilara at tamang sematiko. Wag ka, dapat makabuluhan ito dahil kung hindi, (ikaw na bahalang mag-imagine). Haaaays. Ganyan talaga. Pasalamat na nga lang dahil wala na kaming Finals! Yey!

Hanap dito. Hanap doon. Naririto na naman ako sa buhay na iyon. Ang maghanap ng maghanap ng mga bagay na walang kasiguraduhang bagay. Bakit walang kasiguraduhan? Dahil hindi mo rin naman alam ang gusto mong malaman. Ang alam mo lang, dapat marami kang sanggunian (reference). Hindi mo sigurado kung makakahanap ka, pero, ngunit, datapwat, kahit paano, aasa ka pa rin, magtitiyaga at maghihintay.

Sa kahahanap ng mga bagay-bagay, napunta ako sa website na ito (http://pinoypanitikan.wordpress.com) at nakatutuwa ang mga impormasyong masasagap niyo rito. Dahil isa rin akong self-proclaimed writer o dili nama'y frustrated writer, mahilig akong magbasa ng mga katha, mapa-tula man, kwento o anu pa man yun, basta papasa sa panlasa kong medyo mababa ang absolute threshold (yes! psych!).

Ito ang aking natagpuan:




by DEMOGARGON SAATBARMALD

Copyright 2007

First seen in the website Emanilapoetry.com

Boredom began to conquer my life as I

Looked into the never ending night sky.

Loneliness began to attack my entire being.

I need something to do to become satisfied,

That’s why I took my fully-charged iPOD

And turned it on for my convenience.

I began to press softly the circular pads

Before I played my desired music.

First I listened to Luis Fonsi.

His voice was very sympathizing as well

As the musical instruments playing.

Abrazar la Vida. I began to realize

What is life all about—my purpose

Why I am here on earth.

Embrace your life, says Fonsi,

Even if your life is full of tragedies,

Trials, sorrows. Because of such realizations

I cried to my miserable life—my life

Who needs to be changed.

Melancholia conquers my soul again

As Luis Fonsi serenades my ears.

Because I don’t want to feel the self-pity

About my tragic destiny, I decided

To switch to Carlos Ponce.

La Razón de mi Ser. The reason of my exsistence.

The entire lyrics tickled my ears as Ponce

Delivered it with full of magic.

There, my dreams came to life in an instant.

Fantasies began to tickle my imagination.

While Ponce is singing, I fantasized

How Zuleyka Rivera is romancing me.

Dame Chocolate. I remembered her first

Telenovela called. I dreamt I am the main

Protagonist as the chocolate proprietor;

Sweet, loving, and caring.

The reason of my life is by loving her.

Damn it! I began to feel an erection!

I decided to stop my fantasies and

Imaginations so I went Greek;

That is why Michalis Hatzigiannis

Whispered to my ears.

Den Fevgo, a solemn Greek love song

Began to sprinkle magic to my ears

His voice… bedroom voice makes me

Feel better. My entire being began to

Rest for a while, having peace of mind.

Also I dreamt with my love together

While we are walking at the top of the

Starry skies. There, I began to close my eyes

And sleep to greet the next day of my life.



Eh sa natutuwa ako sa tulang iyan, bakit ba?

Bakit ba? Eh kasi meron pa!


NGAYON



ni RYAN CHARLES HERNANDO, Letran

Copyright 2005 Intraknight

Hindi ko alam ang dahilan

Ng ganito at ng ganyan at ng bawat

kinahinatnan.

May mga bagay na di ko maipaliwanag.

Sadyang binabalot ng misteryosong

liwanag.

Wala akong kinalaman, wala nang

pakialam.

Ngayon tinapos na ang kahapon,

Kahapon na sinisimulang tapusin na nga.

Sino ba talaga ang magpapasya?

Ang dami nila, siya o sila?

Alam ko na ako; oo, ako ang tatapos nito.


Akala ko, ako ang nagsulat nito ngunit 'di pala. Feelingera lang ako! Paano, para kasing ganyan ako magsulat eh. Pero... ito ang mas masaklap


ni RYAN CHARLES HERNANDO, Letran

Copyright 2005 IntraKnight

Doon, lumuhod at nagdasal

Hinihingi ang matagal nang inaasam

Nasaktan, nasugatan patuloy pang nahihirapan,

Takot ako, pagod na ko

San pa’ko susuot?

Emosyong nawala san ko mahahanap?

Sana’y ikaw na lang ang sagot sa bawat katanungan

Sana’y ikaw ang bubuo sa nabasag kong puso

Oo, ikaw, ikaw na nasa harap ko.

Sa’yo ko ba mahahanap ang nawawalang hinahanap?

Hindi mo ba ito alam?

Hindi mo ba ako kayang samahan

O di kaya’y tulungang lumisan

Sa mundo ng kawalan na gusto ko nang iwasan.


At dito po nagtatapos ang presentasyon ng pangkat isa.

Dislaimer:
Not sure if these
♥ ☺ ♥ And that what life brings. ♥ ☺ ♥

Pabaon ng aking Sosyolohiya

Ang bilis naman ng panahon, patapos na naman ang klase. Parang kailan lang at nanginginig ako sa takot dahil sa ibang mundong aking kinakaharap. Hindi ko na namalayang ang oras pala ay tumatakbo, tila baga kasing laging ako ang naghahabol nito. Laging hinahabol ang oras. Laging nai-stress sa mga gawain. Walang katapusang kailangang tapusin.


Ang bilis naman ng panahon, patapos na ang klase. Ang klase kung saan akala ko ay hindi na ako makatatagal. Hindi ko na mabilang kung ilang beses akong nagpuyat at nag-give up. Ang tingin ko sa buhay ay puno ng pahirap.


Ang bilis naman ng panahon, matatapos na ang klaseng ito. May natutunan ba ako sa asignaturang ito?


Ako, isang tipikal na tao sa mundo, hindi iniintindi ang buhay ng ibang tao. Walang pakialam sa galaw ng mundo, basta’t ako’y namumuhay ng payapa.


Sabi nga ni C. Wright Mills, walang pakialam ang tao sa lipunang kanyang ginagalawan lalo na kapag sila ay maligaya. Natamaan ako sa sinabi niyang ito. Oo nga, sapul na sapul ako.


Ang una naming tinalakay ay ang pagkakaroon ng ispesyal na imahinasyon. Tinawag ito ni Mills na sociological imagination kung saan may iba kang pananaw at pagtingin sa panglipunang katotohanang ipinapakita sa tatlong aspekto: kasaysayan, lipunan at bayograpiya. Dito maipapakita ang pagkakaugnay ng tao sa kanyang lipunang ginagalawan na naghuhubog sa bawat isa. Dahil sa relasyong ito ng mga tao’t lipunan, makikita natin ang dahilan ng pagkakaiba-iba ng mga tao at kung paan mabubuo ang mga institusyon.


Ang mga institusyong ito ay humuhubog sa tao na ginawa rin naman ng mga tao. Nabuo ito sa pakikipag-ugnayan ng iba’t ibang mamamayan na kahit hindi natin namamalayan ay nabubuo pa rin. Naglalayong pagsilbihan ang lipunan at permanente na sa mundo. Hindi mo na ito maalis kahit ayaw mo nito.


Ano nga ba ang mga halimbwa ng institusyon?


Pagkamulat natin sa mundo, hindi pa naman natin ang alam kung sino tayo, ano tayo, anong lenggwaheng naiintindahna natin at anong ating lahi. Ipinanganak tayong wala ngunit dala ng ating pakikisalamuha sa iba at mga pangyayari sa ating buhay tayo ay naging tayo sa kinalalagyan natin ngayon.


Ang isang pinakapayak na halimbawa ng institusyon ay ang ang pamilya. Ito raw ang una nating makikilala sa mundo na magbubo sa ating pananaw. Tuturuan tayo ng mga paniniwala, ihahanda tayo sa ibang mga bagay at ipakikilala sa atin ang iba pang institusyon..


Dahil nais nating matuto, makikilala naman natin ang institusyon na paaralan. Tuturuan tayong bumasa at sumulat, magrebelde at magkaroon ng karapatan, magdidisiplina at magsasabi ng mabuting pag-uugali, magpapamemorya ng mga arithmetic at magsasabi sa atin na tayo pala ay isang Pilipino.


Ano nga ba ulit ang ating sinasabi tuwing Lunes ng umaga...

Ang mamatay ng dahil sa iyo.

Puro mabulaklak na pangako ang ating sinasalita ngunit hindi sumagi sa aking isip na magbubuwis ng buhay para sa bayan. Siguro nga tinuturo lang talaga ito sa atin ngunit hindi sinasagawa.

Ako ay Pilipino, Ako ay Pilipino

Taas noo kahit kanino

Ang Pilipino ay ako

Naalala ko pa itong kinakanta namin tuwing Biyernes ng hapon. Tuwang tuwa kami sa pagkanta at nagpapalakasan pa. Ang pinaka-astig at matalino ay iyong malakas ang boses at kabisado ang kanta. Galing mo na nun! Papalakpakan ka pa.


Pero naisip ko, anong halaga nito? Wala namang mangyayari sa bayan kapag nakabisa ito. Sa pagpasok ko sa Socio10 kung saan iniiba ang paniniwala ko, kailangan natin ng tunay na pagbabago, pagbabago sa sistema ng pamahalaan, paggamit sa korapsiyon sa kabutihan at PAGKILOS.


Paggamit sa korapsyon? Nagulintang ako roon ah! Karamihan ng tao, alam na ang korapsyon ang pianakadahilan kung bakit maraming naghihirap. Ang katiwaliaan ang dahilan ng pagyaman ng mga mayayaman at paghirap ng mga mahihirap. Ang dahilan ng pagkapanalo ni Erap. At ang slogang ginamit ni Pangulong Noynoy.


Ano bang sinabi nila?

Kung walang kurap, walang mahirap

Iyon din ang pananaw ko rati e. Inisip ko ngang kung mamamatay ang lahat ng mga tiwali sa pamahalaan ay makakasulong na rin tayo sa lugmok. Pero, iba ang paniniwala ng aming propesor.


Mahirap tibagin ang batong matibay. Mahirap tanggalin, lalo na kung mag-isa ka lang, ang mga bagay na mas matanda sa iyo. Hindi mo hawak ang buhay ng tao at hindi mo makokontrol ang pag-iisip nila kaya hindi mo sila mapapasunod sa kung anong gusto mo. Hindi mo kayang tanggalin ang korapsyong nananahan na sa institusyon.


Ang mas maganda, gamitin daw natin ito sa produktibong paraan. Hindi man natin ito matibag, hayaan na lang natin ito at gamitin sa pagpapaunlad. Tulad ng ibang mga bansa, lalo na ang South Korea at China na matindi ang korasyon ngnit yumayaman.


Pamilya, eskwelahan, Pilipinas, nasyonalismo, lahi, simbahan, media, fashion,at korapsyon. Ilan lamang yan sa mga institusyong humuhubog sa atin.


Tinalakay din ang pagiging nasyon. Ito ay isang konsepto, hindi mahahawakan ngunit alam mong naroon. Ito ang pagtanggap sa lahi mo at sa bayang iyong ginagalawan. Kabilang ka ng isang sangay na namumuhay kasama ang mga taong kaparehas mo ng paniniwala, kulay, pisikal na pangangatawan, lugar at wika. Mga bagay na bumubuo sa isang bansa.


Talakayin natin ang mga simbolisismo nito. Anahaw bilang pambasang dahon, agila bilang pambansang ibon, kalabaw bilang pambansang hayop, bangus bilang pambansang isda, bahay-kubo bilang pambansang bahay, at Lupang Hinirang bilang pambansang awit.


Nagkaroon ng mga ito dahil inirerepresenta raw nila ang ating bansa. Tulad ng agilang lumilipad ng mataas na tulad rin ng Pilipinas na humahataw pataas. Kinukumpara natin ang bayan bilang isang kalabaw na masisipag na tulad rin natin ay hindi sumusuko sa mga gawain. Ang bahay-kubo na nagrerepresenta ng Pilipinas dahil dito lang ito matatagpuan.


Talagang ganyan ang Pilipino, kinukumpara natin ang sarili sa magandang bagay at hindi ibinabandera sa iba ang mga mababahong kaugalian tulad ng ningas kugon, maniana habits, bahala na, crab mentality at marami pang iba.


Hindi naman niya sinagot ang kanyang tanong kung ang Pilipinas ba ay over populated. Hindi niya dinrektang sinabing mataas na ang ating populasyon bagkus ay binato kami ng mga numero. Mayroon tayong pagtaas sa populasyon na 1.9 bahagdan taon-taon at mahigit sa 90,000 sa kasalukuyan. Kung ganito karami ang bilang, kahit na mababa ang growing rate, tiyak na mauubusan na tayo ng ispasyo sa turahan at ang masaklap, kailangan pa natin ng importasyon sa pagkain dahil hindi na kayang pakainin ng mga magsasaka ang libo-libo katao.


Ang bilis naman ng panahon, maggagabi na naman. Nagpapalit na ang mga pahina sa kalendaryo. Matatapos na ang asignaturang ito. May natutunan ba ako? Hindi ko alam. Basta ang alam ko, hinuhubog tayo ng lipunan at hinuhubog rin natin ito. Kung anong gawin mo sa lipunan mo ay mauugnay sa pamayanan mo.


Ang bilis naman ng panahon, ang bilis umikot ng oras. Sana nga lang ay pwede itong pahintuin, huwag nang pagalawin, at akin nang kontrolin. Pero hindi pala pwede, institusyon rin pala ito.


♥ ☺ ♥ And that what life brings. ♥ ☺ ♥

Saturday, March 12, 2011

se7en

SEVEN THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:

1) EXTREME Failure
2) Rejection T.T
3) Falling ( ahhmm. maybe falling in ♥)
4) Getting hurt, physically and emotionally
5) Amnesia, 'coz I DON'T WANT TO FORGET the THINGS I CHERISH THE MOST.
6) SADNESS and LONELINESS. supaah hate them.
7) Not knowing life and love at all.



SEVEN
THINGS YOU LIKE THE MOST:

1) Happiness ☺☻☺
2) Laughter XD XD XD
3) The kilig chilling heavenly feeling
4) COLORS. glad to see colors in life <3
5) Anime rocks paper scissors
6) FRIENDS
7) Stolen pictures o


SEVEN IMPORTANT THINGS IN YOUR ROOM
1)
Notebooks. I have plenty of these but, I do not use them.
2) Stuff Toys. Yeah! they are my friends :)
3) Peeellows --- isang unan, tatlong yakap, isang sandalan.
4) KALAT supeeer dami. sheet.
5) Treasure box
6) Wall clock.
7) MIRRORS *.*

SEVEN RANDOM FACTS ABOUT YOU


1) Randominity you can't judge me by the other or inner 'coz I am super RANDOM!
2) Istupidooo.
3) I love daydreaming, night-dreaming where-ever-the-place-edreaming!
4) Clumsy >.<
5) CRAMMERER aw!
6) I blogged a lot. I have accounts in every site! Search me hee hee.
7) I want to go replay the life. Not to change things but to experience them again! huhu. I WANT TIME MACHINE!

SEVEN THINGS YOU PLAN TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE


1) Speak 7 languages FLUENTLY T.T
2) Travel around the WHOLE WIDE WORLD!
3) Play on/in/at
SNOOOOW.
4) Marry and settle down with the one i love and he must LOVE me too. I
don't want one-sided feeling. GEEEZ.
5) Build my own mansion or a palace.
6) Earn a degree! heeey! I want to finish my course. I want the title
PSYCHOMETRICIAN before Vanessa F. Burton
7) Lose control... Even for just a day...


SEVEN THINGS YOU CAN DO:

1) I can L.A.U.G.H like there's no tomorrow!
2) Speak Japanese a li'l bit.
3) Sleep everywhere! :)) :)) :))
4) I can eat the whole WATERMELON in just 30 minutes! TRY ME :))
5) Chit chat for hours! I never ran out of stories if I'll want to! PS. It depends on who is my chitchatmate
6) I can siiiiiiing! ♫♫♫ LALALA ♫♫♫ don't ask if it's EAR FRIENDLY
7) I can PRETEND! geeeeez.

SEVEN THINGS YOU CAN'T DO:


1) I can't make him fall for me. EMOOOOW!
2) Control my DIET.
3) Force myself without the GRRR feeling.
4) Resist procrastination
5) Eat veggies except CARROTS and sitaw.
6) Befriend those I hate most!
7) Express myself the way I truly feel.



SEVEN THINGS THAT ATTRACT YOU TO THE OPPOSITE SEX:


1) EYES! famous answer.
2) Sense of humor
3) Understanding and caring
4) A good listener, especially that I love telling stories
5) Gesture and personality
6) When I am comfortable with him, for me, he's somewhat attractive.

7) In short, HIM!

SEVEN THINGS YOU SAY THE MOST:
1) Thank you ☻☻☻
2) Soooooooo,
3) Sige! (instead of goodbye. I hate goodbye! For me, it means ending the path of life or we will not meet ANYMORE! In short, ENDZZZZZ.)
4) In short,
5) End sentences with "ah," "eh," "ih," "oh," "uh." It depends on my mood choosing and inserting them to my phrase. Sometimes, I combine it! hahaha.
6) "Kasi naman, eh!" when someone's teasing me.
7) WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE and HAHAHAHAHA.


SEVEN CELEB CRUSHES:

1) Adam Sandler
2) Mario Maurer
3) Daniel Radcliffe
4) John Lloyd Cruz (WHATTT?)
5) NATSUME HYUUGA!
6) Leonardo DiCaprio
7) HIM. think of him as one of those STARS! hee hee ♥


DISCLAIMER
--just get it from ate Cham! Thanks ate, haha. I just try it and glad it's fun!


written originally : Feb 20, '11 12:38 PM